How to be the Best that no one ever was

Dear Aditi,

   I wrote a blog post last year on your birthday. I'm doing the same again. I'll assume you have already read the card I gave you before reading this. If not, probably open it.

Now that you are disappointed and maybe confused. I tried to write something emotional and moving. But I'm not Namjoon.  I tried to write anything, but then I found myself ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°), a lot.

I have come to the conclusion that you are the problem. You are so important to me that my very badly written words will never be enough. Nevertheless, I'll try my best.

Last year I wrote that you are reason we all haven't drifted apart. And although we did kinda drift apart this year, you are still the common link between all of us.

It saddens me how far we've drifted apart, and a lot of it I feel like is my fault. I'm sorry. I should talk more often. But you've managed to keep connected, idk how. But well done. You Da best.

Speaking of, you really are the best. Like oh my god you mean so much to me. Like you are my best friend and the one I would dedicated the masterpiece song, Spring Day to you.

Aditi Spicy Piri Chicken Nuggets Shymal Majumdar Topper, I love you. I love you so much. I wish I was better with words, or like being witty  but I don't think I have the capacity to do that. With you or being drunk. Oh yeah, I'm drunk. I didn't mean to be drunk by the way. Oops.

It's okay, this year has been pretty darn lit for you. For one you became an alcoholic, that's character development. And you grew up to be like a human I adore and envy all at the same time. That is a compliment, I swear.

Basically you have become this person who is quite incredible. You are growing into a fine young woman keke. I don't mean to sound like a mom, but I can't help it. You're a good one.

Happy Birthday! You aren't that old chill. If you aren't old enough to be a CEO, you aren't that old. Even if you act like an old man mostly of the time, you are also a smol child. Reminds me of someone I know.

Love.
Upa.

how to December

Dear Upa,

it’s been a while lmao

Okay, okay. So this year was a pretty… disappointing situation for our blog. How I felt logging in to blogger is probably how Kookie feels every time he reinstalls Twitter on his phone, and that's when you know it's bad. I’m not sure why it was like this, but I’m never sure, all I know is that I really don’t want it to be like this next year. I hope that's what you want as well. Let’s work harder in 2018!

I’m not going to try to talk about everything that’s happened since I last wrote, mostly because I literally have no idea. That was back in… August. In short, almost everything right now is the opposite of what it was back then, and let’s leave it at that.

Let’s talk about December. I’m so happy!!! It’s the best time of the year!! And now that exams in college happen in December, it’s even more of an excuse to have fun and be useless for the rest of the month. Seriously, December is like a reward for surviving the rest of the 11 months, everything is so happy and pretty and calm, I’m soft.

I mean wow, BTS won two daesangs, killed everyone with their performances, the Wings final concert almost killed me, my babies are doing so well and they make me cry so much jkbefvjber bless them

Also my exams happened LOL but I had only like two half-breakdowns which I think is a record, look at me becoming a better version of myself i’m so proud bless me

(please god of gpas be kind to me)

Everything is so beautifully lit up and Christmassy! Taejin’s birthday!! My nose is cold! Candles! No studying! Hobi on the BTS calendar! Christmas socks! Christmas songs! Cookies! Cooky! Kookie! Friends! Family! Dogs! BTS! I love! December! So! Much!

oh and ofc my birthday’s coming soon, which I really don’t want to think about because it reminds me of the inevitable passage of time and about how I’m just getting older and older. I feel like I just turned 16, this is a scam, where is the time flying Im old enough to get married i dont want to get married mom

and um… yeah

I’ll stop writing this like it’s a shit post. Is it too late to do that? Probably. Here I go.

This year too we see the Christmas tree. Streets everywhere are bright in celebrations. For me today too and tomorrow it’s Christmas day. Beautiful lights welcoming us. The flowers in my hand fragance overflowing. Getting to see your pretty smile again. It’s getting me fluttery.

With you, shawty with you. With you, shawty with you. With you, beautiful christmas day~~

no what those arent the lyrics to jikooks christmas day I don't know what ur talking about shhhHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh

Okay honestly I wanted to put up something well written and meaningful. I swear. I’m not sure what happened, I think I’m too excited.

Anyway, I’m so glad December exists. 

December is like a pat on the head that says, “You’ve worked hard. You did well.” No matter how good or shitty a year has been, December’s always full of happy memories. No matter how much you’ve struggled, or how wonderful or tough this year has been, it deserves to be celebrated. We made it to December. Look at how far we’ve all come, I’m so proud. We deserve December. 

You’ve worked hard. You did well.

Bye for now, 

Aditi.