Dear Aditi,
Let's talk about God. And not the Jesus variety.
So, for the zero people who read these. God is my senpai who I really like and is actual human goals in every sense of the way. She is very trash but incredible at academics, and she is the sweetest human who cheers people through the medium of dog memes.
Anyway, the first time I had seen and noticed God in college was when she had worn a homestuck shirt to college, and I saw it told Niv and both of us followed her. Now I'm not into homestuck, honestly I don't get it and it's really long and complicated. But Niv is. So I was forcing her to go talk to this person who might be a homestuck fan or just got incredibly lucky as a cosplay.
Turns out she was into that. And Niv and God quickly became friends. And Niv would come and fangirl to me about her. And it was cute. I was like I wish I had someone I could fangirl over like that about. Then realised I had you, and BTS and Saap Ghar.
Niv had mentioned to be that God was also into BTS and anime and like almost everything I like. And I had just thought whoa she is a super human, that's a lot of fandoms. But then again I am also part of most of these fandoms. Except homestuck.
And then I got added in a group. With fangirls and cosplayers and the whole lot of that. And God was one of them. And she was showing off all the Kpop merch her mumma bought her from Seoul. And I was so excited and also a little jealous.
But she was a cool person who talked in memes, so it really resonated with me, on a personal level.
And then she invited my group of friends to a Kpop Contest. To watch, and like meet more kpop humans. We all decided we would go for it, nothing could go wrong can it.
Nope. Wrong. A lot can go wrong. Like rain. A whole lot of rain. And Mona didn't have an umbrella, which isn't really a problem since the rest of us were okay sharing. But she refused and got wet instead claiming it was fun. Honestly, I don't get how that can be fun, but I mean you do you.
The only problem is that, since she was wet she couldn't come for the kpop thing and the other one loves her so went along with her. Which left me alone to go for the thing with all of my friend circle ditching me and the only hope I had was God.
And that's when she stopped being a friend of a friend, and became an actual friend. A direct human who l like to interact with without any other reason than I just like them.
Everything that Niv said about her was true. And she calls me Kookie, or son. Depending on the situation. And sometimes hibiscus to tease me.
And I mostly call her God. Because God is hilarious. It's a funny name, and makes people confused. She is a genius for coming up with that.
She is such an incredible person, that I have come to the realisation that she is one of the few people out there I can't stand disappointing. And I am completely whipped to the point where I will go out of my way just to make her happy even when she doesn't ask for it.
The few people who when I see something in a shop, I will be like God will like that and then buy it for her. But she doesn't like people spending money on her, which makes it very problematic. She also isn't the type to be unappreciative when given a gift so that makes it slightly better.
And in so many ways God is like you. So pure, and innocent (let's ignore the fact she writes gay smut, but if you ever think about getting a new hobby- I will always read your gay smut ;) )
Here is what I want to say.
I really really like God.
I even love God.
But in the most platonic way possible. Okay, not the most platonic- I am always a little gay.
But it's like the type of admiration that Kookie has for his hyungs. And I am so whipped but I wouldn't change it.
Love,
upa.
