How To Become An Artist

Dear Aditi,

                 First thing, sorry I am late. I was busy doing stuff. Also hanging out with you.  Secondly, we have decided that our update days will be Wednesday for me and Sunday for you.

So recently I have been practicing my art again, like those daily sketches and stuff I used to do. I painted a five-part dragon series, which you saw already. I also wasted a shit ton of money buying art material, and art supplies are so fucking expensive. This is why all artists are broke. That got me questioning myself though, am I an artist? Do I even have the right to call myself that? What makes a person an artist?

I thought the simplest answer would be that people who draw well can consider themselves artist. But, I know deep in my heart that is bullshit. What is a good drawing? Proportional figures? Perspective? Getting the skin colour perfectly right? I don’t do any of those properly.

Art is so subjective, that I don’t know whether to call myself an artist or an art student.  But even my horrible art teacher, she would give me 6 out of 10 on works that I was genuinely proud of, and really high on my works that were just eh. I am conflicted on what I am,  and maybe I am both. Or maybe I am none.

I see the world in a colour palette, knowing that the shirt you wore that day was a mixture of vermillion with a tiny bit of scarlet. I assume most people would called it red. I am also like Nozaki-kun in the way that I find a pretty thing and the first thing I think of is, that would be good reference.

It is going to take a long time before I crumble.

May your swords stay sharp,

Upa.