How to Find Confidence

I'm late again. I forgot. I am going to come up with a better excuse next week. Not that I am saying I will be late next week. I won't.  Don't worry.

I have a lot of confidence. And I haven't always been like this. I have always been a narcissist, but it is only recently I have become a confident narcissist. And I have been thinking where I came about find this confidence. I wish to believe I just woke up one morning and I was like, this fuck I am awesome. It’s honestly not far from the truth. 

But the truth is that I have my confidence because of the friends I have. Who are so genuine, and honest that when they say I look good I know they won’t be lying. And if they say I don’t, I’ll believe them and probably do nothing about it. There is also the fact that I care quite a lot about how I look. Not how good or bad I look. Just how I look. The first impression I will give to person. I am very bad at first impressions. I just stand their awkwardly smiling and let the others do all the talking. I feel like if I will open my mouth, I’ll embarrass myself even more. It’s a miracle how I have any friend, yet alone such great ones. 

AND YOU ARE COMING HERE SOON! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH AND I AM SOOOO EXCITED. I THINK I MIGHT EXPLODE! 

Bye Bye. 

Upa.