How Not To Prepare For Exams

Dear Upa,

                I had forgotten how much I hated exams. I really, really hate exams.

Now, it’s not writing the actual exam that stresses me out, it’s the days leading up to them. I am a huge procrastinator, as you are well aware, so having lots of holidays and doing something I’m expected to do is something that I am not capable of. I could exalt the joy of learning and acquiring knowledge, but in truth I just while away the time that I have and end up cramming in last minute. It’s not that I don’t care about the exams, I usually get super worked up, but when it comes to actually staring at the dull interior of a text book for 24 hours, I am rendered physically inept. 

Everyone around me is freaking out and studying all the time while I blankly stare at the textbook, get bored, and then distracted. People are so worried about how they have like 2 chapters remaining and I’m here with the whole portion left.

The worst part though, if it can get any worse, is that literally no one believes me when I say that I don’t study. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t care what they think, it’s just that everyone else thinking I study all the time makes me feel pressurised to study, like I’m going to let everyone down if I don’t. But I was taught to not give in to peer pressure, so even that is not enough to get me studying. 

And I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried scaring myself, thinking I’m going to fail in all the exams, telling myself that there are people out there who don’t even have the opportunity to study while I’m wasting away my privileges, but nope. Nothing works.

So I’m just going to whine about how difficult my socially advantaged first world life is instead of studying. At least I get to meet you after this hell is over.

Bye for now, 

Aditi.