How to do Nothing

Dear Aditi,
   Oh my god, I am so not busy.

I mean, normally I would consider this great. You know catch up on tv shows and other trash. But my mind can't seem to want to do any of that. I guess I am having something of an existential crisis. Again. This time it is related to the fact that I do need to grow up. It's time I start acting and doing something significant for myself.

So, instead I spent my tike taking buzzfeed quizzes. Which tells me I am 94% nerd. And if I was a Taylor Swift song, it would be Wildest Dreams. I also have really bad general knowledge, unless it is animal related. I know way too many pretty useless animal facts. But they make great conversation starters though, at least I hope they do. I have personally never tried opening a conversation with another person like that. I should try, but when speaking to new people or starting conversation I usually tend to let the other person talk more and then once I am sure they won’t leave me I start talking about myself. It usually works. Sometimes, they just leave me. I have become somewhat immune to it now, though recently haven’t really gone to any sort of social gathering. Or gone out of the house in general. 

It’s not affecting me yet, but I think a little more and it is going to effect me a lot. When I feel cooped up, I don’t seem to like to function the way I would normal do. That’s why I am so excited to be coming to you. I mean apart from the fact that you will be there. And I can finally smell you again. I think I might end up smelling like you, which is a great thing. I love the way you smell. And then I get to meet Buddy again. I miss him a lot. It will be almost all of Saap Ghar in Delhi. It just seems like a while ago where I wasn’t allowed to go to Bandra alone, and now I am going to Delhi for the third time. It’s insane and I love it. 

My grandmother is also over. Which is nice, in a way. I mean, I really really missed her. But like all my relatives she likes my brother better. And like all my relatives she is quite vocal about her love for her favourite grandson. I won’t lie, I am a little jealous but apart from that I just think that is a horrible thing to do as a person. Picking favourites among your grandchildren, okay probably everyone does it, but no need to be vocal about it. It makes it worse when the fact that she has taken over my bed, and now I am like a homeless person in my own house and I don’t have the heart to tell her that because I guess I don’t want to hurt her feelings like she does mine. 

Anyway, I have actually been studying to get something done. Today I learned that Punjab has 22 districts and that if you don’t know the answer always chose B. Okay, I knew that form before because once Suga mentioned it in a video. But it is actually pretty legit advice. 

Love you, 

Upa.