How to Complain

Dear Upa,

       

                I’m trying to look for new things to talk about to bring in some variety, but honestly, I’m drawing a blank. It’s not like my life is particularly multi-faceted, and there’s only so many different ways I can come up with to complain about the things that happen to me. 

For example, my beautiful luck when the mixtape came out. I don’t know why I’m always right about what’s going to happen or why this can’t happen to me when I write papers, all I know is that out of the vast expanse of possible moments Yoongs could have picked to drop ‘Agust D’, it was when I was out of dinner with my relatives. I literally excused myself to the bathroom to watch the MV and was shaking like a psychotic person for the rest of the dinner, what is my life.

Then in Eco class sir asked a question and I whispered the answer and he was like “what?” and instead of shaking my head I tried to explain and then he got confused and I was like “what” and he was like “what” and then I became a blubbering mess and went low in my seat and covered my face with my notebook because I was embarrassed to get so much attention randomly in the middle of class and my friends just laughed at me. I may have looked cute to them, but I think they have a bias.

I’ve also been ranting to every person in the universe about Agust D. One of our friends listened to the whole thing and went “I zoned out ten minutes ago” and I was like that’s okay and continued ranting. I also think I embarrassed myself online by ranting to this really nice girl about ‘my small baby look at him I’m so proud this isn’t a mixtape it’s a mastepiece aGHHHGHgh’. 

But I’m trying not to think too much about that. 

One of my friends said that my pen pencil is shit and bought me a pencil and it was PINK because Jin and I held on to it like it was the most valuable thing ever because I was so touched but obviously I lost it and was so embarrassed that I haven’t carried my pouch to school for two weeks.

And I could go on forever, honestly, but I’m emotionally drained because of thinking about Agust D. Besides, you’re not really missing much.

Sorry for being so shit at posting. :(

Bye for now, 

Aditi.