How To Not Know How

Dear Upa,

                

                That happens to me all the time.

I totally know where you’re coming from.

Well, maybe I’m not that affected by the not being able to approach people thing. I mean yes, it is a huge problem sometimes, but sometimes I’m just used to it. Most of the time, I’m not really interested in approaching people anyway. At times it’s not because there’s anything wrong with them, but because my brain completely shuts down and I become hyper aware of everything I’m saying if I really care about what someone thinks of me. Usually, if there’s someone that I really, REALLY want to get to know, I eventually end up getting to know them. The times I don’t I just deal with it.

Basically what I’m saying is that it’s not like it’s not a huge problem for me or that I don’t wish I knew how to fix it, I’m just saying that I’ve gotten used to dealing with it. I think.

That’s the thing about being both shy and socially awkward. I know that I’m not completely socially inept, sometimes I surprise myself, but sometimes my brain completely shuts down and I go blank. Sometimes talking in front of other people TERRIFIES me but sometimes it just comes to me naturally. It just depends on the day. 

I would help it if I could, but I really don’t know how to.

Bye for now, 

Aditi