How To Be Confused

Dear Upa,

                
              Tomorrow, I go back. I’m perhaps not the first person in the world to realise that time is the most uncooperative entity in the universe, and it passes painstakingly slow when you want it to pass by fast and passes by in a flash when you want it to stop forever. 
The past month and a half have been SO fun. Actually, scratch that, this whole year so far has been amazing. I know, it wasn’t the most ideal scenario, and we did have to write our boards and stuff, but this year has been the most eventful year of my life. I'm so grateful for the amazing people I have around me and that I will never have a valid reason to feel truly alone, even if I'm on the other side of the country. There was a lot of change, and I’m not even sure where I’ll be what time of the year, but I’ve found that I don’t mind a bit of spontaneity. For the first time in my entire life, I don’t mind not knowing. And that confuses me.
Contrary to what I had thought the day I came back here for the holidays, I am not a mess and I am not dreading the thought of going back to school. I am actually excited to meet new people. That, I believe, is a positive sign. It is quite possible that by next week I won’t feel the same, in fact I know that that’s going to happen, but for some reason I am content right now, and I don’t mind it.
No but seriously, half the year is ALREADY over. That’s retarded. In 6 months, 2015 will be over and it’ll be time for 2016. That’s CRAZY. I wonder what the rest of 2015 has in store for us, and if it’s going to be as eventful as it’s first half then I’m ready for it. Bring it on, 2015 part 2.

    I know I’ll be back for a few weekends in the future, but honestly, I miss you already.

Bye for now,

Aditi.