How to Find A Solution

Jugaad

(colloquial) a mechanical solution to a problem, work around to skip or solve a problem

Dear Upa,

                 I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. 

It's been that way for a while now, but I think I've reached a point where I've stopped pretending I know what I'm doing because a) it's too much effort, and b) no one else knows what they're doing, either. 

I don't have a plan. 

I have a goal, for now, but I have no idea how to achieve it. I'm literally making it up as I go, completely plan-deficient, winging every little problem that comes my way because honestly, I'm too tired to panic. 

Somewhere between working my butt off for a math UT that was a joke for the school and a stupid migraine that wants to kill me and other small problems that keep passing like buildings on a highway, I think I'm completely done. And the funny thing is, I'm actually good. 

Seriously, there has been an alarming hike in my "completely done with everything" level. It's working for me, actually, less thinking and more doing. 

I think this is good, whatever this is, and it's happened so many times this past week already. I'm getting my work done, I haven't gotten in trouble (yet) and I panic lesser, or for shorter amounts of time. 

Maybe it'll be a while before I actually have a plan. Maybe I'll never have a plan. Either way, I know I'll find a temporary solution to it so it doesn't bother me at the time. 

Every problem has a makeshift solution, and I realised I'm good at finding them. 

Unless it's math, of course. 

Bye for now, 

Aditi.