Dear Aditi,
So I've had to write 3 Statement of Purposes in the past week. That didn't go so great. I feel like at the start of 11th grade I had my whole life planned out, and I was sure of what I want to do, but as the months progressed I kind of lost pieces of my passion along the way. I did pick up new things, and dropped a few unnecessary ones along the way but I lost track.
I lost track of who I am, and what I want to be. And it insane to know what you want to do for your whole like when you are 17 and a sheltered child who never had to fend for himself but, I am suppose to. And a while ago, I did. Now, I kind of do.
It's still design. Of course it's still design. That's like my only talent, god knows writing isn't one because why do I use so many commas. Like at this point might as well make a whole sentence with only commas. But anyway, to find your way you must lose your way.
Well, I'm very lost and now I got to find my way.
I just really hope whatever I have bullshitted will get me through somewhere. Because I know this is what I want to do, but I don't know what to do with it. Does that make sense? I have a strong feeling that would be a perfect statement if I was studying liberal arts and just studying because I want to study. But apparently designers don't study just because they want to study, they study to get hired. And then get money.
I want money, so I guess that's why I am studying????? I don't know anymore.
And college is starting tomorrow which I am already dreading because ew college. My plan is to sleep all day in college, I say that now. But we know that when the lecture starts I get scared if the teacher will catch me or not and never end of sleeping but also not end up understanding so it ends up being a waste of my time and theirs. I am going to check how much attendance I have and calculate how much I can bunk. I am going to willingly use maths in my daily life. Wow.
Love,
upa.
So I've had to write 3 Statement of Purposes in the past week. That didn't go so great. I feel like at the start of 11th grade I had my whole life planned out, and I was sure of what I want to do, but as the months progressed I kind of lost pieces of my passion along the way. I did pick up new things, and dropped a few unnecessary ones along the way but I lost track.
I lost track of who I am, and what I want to be. And it insane to know what you want to do for your whole like when you are 17 and a sheltered child who never had to fend for himself but, I am suppose to. And a while ago, I did. Now, I kind of do.
It's still design. Of course it's still design. That's like my only talent, god knows writing isn't one because why do I use so many commas. Like at this point might as well make a whole sentence with only commas. But anyway, to find your way you must lose your way.
Well, I'm very lost and now I got to find my way.
I just really hope whatever I have bullshitted will get me through somewhere. Because I know this is what I want to do, but I don't know what to do with it. Does that make sense? I have a strong feeling that would be a perfect statement if I was studying liberal arts and just studying because I want to study. But apparently designers don't study just because they want to study, they study to get hired. And then get money.
I want money, so I guess that's why I am studying????? I don't know anymore.
And college is starting tomorrow which I am already dreading because ew college. My plan is to sleep all day in college, I say that now. But we know that when the lecture starts I get scared if the teacher will catch me or not and never end of sleeping but also not end up understanding so it ends up being a waste of my time and theirs. I am going to check how much attendance I have and calculate how much I can bunk. I am going to willingly use maths in my daily life. Wow.
Love,
upa.
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