how to adjust

Dear Aditi,

I have been living this hostel life for 2 weeks now. And I'm used to it. I don't love it, but I'm okay with it. The funny thing is, my house, the one in Mumbai. The one where I live, I have forgotten so easily.

I'm not the type to get homesick. I never do. And I thought it's just the duration or something, but no I'm actually pretty okay not being home. Of course I'm not okay being away from my friends and roads through which I can navigate on my own and I am counting day till I can comeback.

But I have gotten used to sleeping in this bed, and sharing my room with people who used to be stranger 2 weeks back. It's not like I still know them very well or anything but I'm comfortable in their presence, and honestly that's good enough. I have gotten used to the hell like routine, and the strange diet of momos and paratha I am on. I'm used to the people I meet every morning and night, though they are almost the same set of people.

I'm not sad anymore, well I don't really have the time to be sad but I think even if I did have the time I wouldn't be as sad as I used to be. And that is progress.

Now on to more important things than my drastic lifestyle change. It's BTS' new concept. Love yourself. I feel like I needed that now more than ever, surrounded by so many pretty (and unfortunately straight) girls, it's hard to see yourself as well... good enough. And maybe I'm not good enough, not yet. But being around people who are better than me atleast gives me some motivation to improve and like be the best I possibly can, maybe after finishing all my assignments though.

Love,
Upa.