Dear Upa,
I know I'm early, but I was lying awake thinking about how much I miss Buddy and it reminded me of your blogpost. So I decided that writing about it is probably going to make me feel better, as it does always.
While I read your post, all I could think of was that I can't really relate. But I'm happy for you. As for your reasons, I think only the first is valid. Being with her shouldn't make you bunk or the time limit shouldn't scare you off. Don't waste the time you have thinking of what may happen. But by all means, take your time and do what you must. I know that it's quite a rubbish feeling to see her right infront of you and not be able to do anything about it, but I also imagine that it's also wonderful in the strangest of ways. Yes, being in love can be terrible, but having someone to love is amazing.
That's how I feel about love. That it causes a lot of unnecessary pain. Like right now, I miss Buddy (my dog who is still in Mumbai as context to the fictional readers who might be confused) so much. I also love him so much. That's the problem. It feels so empty to not have him close to me.
I don't think I can put into words the relationship I have with my dog, and I'm guessing every owner has the same relationship with their pets. Words diminish the feelings they contain. All I can say is that it is something like having a piece of my heart walking around outside me. He's one of the most beautiful things on this planet, and I wouldn't change anything about him for the entire world. I miss his annoying incessant barking and stupid face when he chews up all my favourite things. I miss his wagging tail and the noise his nails make when he walks on the tile floor. I miss how annoying he is when he wakes me up so I can pick him up on the bed or when he wants water. Staying away from him is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. He's not just a dog to me, he is a source of love and happiness. He radiates happiness. He is happiness.
Despite all the pain being away from him is causing me, I do think it's worth it. I'm going to see him again. And I'm going to see you again. I can wait. Love is always worth it.
After all, all magic comes with a price.
Bye for now,
Aditi.
I know I'm early, but I was lying awake thinking about how much I miss Buddy and it reminded me of your blogpost. So I decided that writing about it is probably going to make me feel better, as it does always.
While I read your post, all I could think of was that I can't really relate. But I'm happy for you. As for your reasons, I think only the first is valid. Being with her shouldn't make you bunk or the time limit shouldn't scare you off. Don't waste the time you have thinking of what may happen. But by all means, take your time and do what you must. I know that it's quite a rubbish feeling to see her right infront of you and not be able to do anything about it, but I also imagine that it's also wonderful in the strangest of ways. Yes, being in love can be terrible, but having someone to love is amazing.
That's how I feel about love. That it causes a lot of unnecessary pain. Like right now, I miss Buddy (my dog who is still in Mumbai as context to the fictional readers who might be confused) so much. I also love him so much. That's the problem. It feels so empty to not have him close to me.
I don't think I can put into words the relationship I have with my dog, and I'm guessing every owner has the same relationship with their pets. Words diminish the feelings they contain. All I can say is that it is something like having a piece of my heart walking around outside me. He's one of the most beautiful things on this planet, and I wouldn't change anything about him for the entire world. I miss his annoying incessant barking and stupid face when he chews up all my favourite things. I miss his wagging tail and the noise his nails make when he walks on the tile floor. I miss how annoying he is when he wakes me up so I can pick him up on the bed or when he wants water. Staying away from him is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. He's not just a dog to me, he is a source of love and happiness. He radiates happiness. He is happiness.
Despite all the pain being away from him is causing me, I do think it's worth it. I'm going to see him again. And I'm going to see you again. I can wait. Love is always worth it.
After all, all magic comes with a price.
Bye for now,
Aditi.
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